It seemed a great paradox to me to be thinking about that but here I was alive, feeling all of this pain from the loss and trying to make sense of a new normal in a world without my mom in it. I felt more depth and more connection to the meaning of life than I had in a very long time. My awareness increased substantially of what being fully present in a moment can mean and that my friends, is a huge aspect of what living life creatively means. You embrace it all, the good, the joyful and the painful. Your life may never be perfect but it is perfect in that moment and you will be able to choose what to do with that joy, that pain, that curiosity and move forward or stay stuck. Me, I like forward motion.